Reflecting on my well being in the areas of physical, spiritual, and psychological is not an easy task. On any given day each area may be better or worse than the day before. I am in a challenging time in my life, I feel like I have been riding a roller coaster for several years and just got off. The ground I am walking on may be steady but my legs are still shaking! Today, this is how I would rate the three areas and include the following goals.
Physical- I will give this a 6 today. I feel great physically, no aches or pains and I am building a physical discipline into my daily routine. But, I am not eating well-I have not been hardly eating at all. It upsets my stomach and seems easier to skip it than force it. I have been smoking again. It is easier to calm my brain with nicotine than to deal with the constant ruminations of my mind. Maybe a 6 is a bit optimistic, but I will leave it there. My physical goal is to move deliberately everyday instead of in spurts or when the feeling hits me. To become disciplined, to have a greater control over my physical health. To achieve this goal, this week, I am joining the Y-I have checked out their facilities and I am planning on attending yoga to add actual instruction to my practice and they have a pool for swimming laps. The smoking is heavy on my mind but I am not ready to deal with that yet and as for eating, well, I do what I can right now and I am not under weight (lol) so that will work itself out as I work out the areas below. I am not at risk for an eating disorder, that is psychological and my eating habits are a physical problem due to ulcers I developed over a long period of a difficult relationship.
Spiritual- Today I will rate this a 7. I am seeing and believing more external energy that surrounds me everyday. I have become quiet, reflective. It is a good place to be and as I become more disciplined in meditative practices, I will find peace. My goal is to be more disciplined in meditation. To be quiet every day and listen to what is going on in order to connect with the external energy that surrounds me.
Psychological-rates a 4 for today. I have had a couple of difficult days and am spending a lot of time trying to re-frame what it is instead of what it isn't. I have wasted a lot of time defining things by what they are not and I am feeling like I have lost days, months, and years not enjoying what it is! My goal is to move forward-I cannot change what happened but I can choice to live in the present and look forward to the future. The short term version, something measurable for this week, this month, is to acknowledge the intense feelings from the past as they arise but to ever so gently remind them that they belong in the past. The feelings and experiences have shaped who I am today but they by no means define me. Journaling helps a lot with my psychological life-I can get the negative out and re-frame it and I am able to pinpoint areas that need perspective. It is all about perspective!
The relaxation exercise was awesome. Earlier this week I spent some time trying to open my root chakra and as I was reflecting on becoming grounded in my new life I was trying to remember some of the other chakras. The exercise reminded me what they are and also reinforced the root chakra for me. I have had my roots of 24 years ripped out of the ground and I am ready to establish new ones. For now, I will concentrate on the root chakra and work my way upwards one day at a time.
Enjoy your week, may you have many moments of joy and inspiration!
Stacy
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Hey Stacy,
ReplyDeleteYou are so right about feeling different on different days. When I was self-reflecting, I was feeling a little low, but today is different; I feel better today. So, I'm wondering what I would have rated myself if I had written my self-assessment today. I think I would have given myself a better rating. I think it is very important for us to live in the moment and try and forget about what we didn't do in the past. Thinking about the past and what we should have done with our lives only takes us away from the moment; the moment we need to be in; the moment we are in. Yes, we all think about the past and what might have been, but we need to live for today and the future. It takes time and discipline to be positive about our lives, but we all need to do so for our health. Keep your head up Stacy. All you can do is go up! Have a great week.
WOW, I AM STILL LEARING HOW TO DO THIS. I WISH EVERYONE THE BEST HERE. I KNOW IT IS NOT ALWAYS EASY TO RATE YOURSELF. I WAS HARD FOR ME TO DO I WAS SO WORRIED I WAS NOT DOING THIS RIGHT. I WAS REALLY NOT WANTING TO DO THE BLOG AS I AM NOT GOOD WITH FEELINGS BUT READING THIS IS VERY NICE KEEP IT UP.
ReplyDeleteHi Stacy, you sound like a person that has had a lot on her plate. It also sounds, though, that you have found way's to learn from life experiences. Do not be discouraged by bad days, they are there for a reason. Time is such an important aspect for healing and for the learning process. Your goals sound right on, and your idea of journaling will be the key for utilizing your time of reflection and silence. Good luck to you, Jenny
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